it's just one of those really irritating things, I now have a class that making me regret being in school, not that I regret my path in life if you want to call it that, I just don't like being a student in the structured setting. I love the people at my school, more than I think I could ever tell them, but at the same time I just really don't want to be a student here anymore. I really don't think I can do college, I know I'm going to finish out, and I know I'm going to graduate; eventually :-).
I have doubts about a lot of my relationships right now, not that they aren't great, not that they're not good, but I just have doubts about them. I really love those that I believe are close to me, a lot of people I don't even know even receive love from me, but with some of my friends I just don't even know what's going on. I know a lot of that falls on my inability to communicate with others clearly, and my difficulties keeping up with friends.
women are really weird, the idea of being attracted to multiple women in similar levels, all for good reasons, annoys me, infuriates me, and saddens me. One stands out among the rest, but even still, it is still a difficult choice. I don't even feel like I have a choice. I think I've always felt like I was unworthy of being the one who got to choose.
These are just my thoughts right now kind of off the top of my head, I'm tired, so they're a little less filtered than usual. Anyone who reads this, don't let your head play tricks on you, don't let Satan plays tricks on you, and don't let him deceive you, guard your heart. Love in our most glorious Lord. Adam.
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