I don't think that really anyone likes feeling this way

I really, really, REALLY do not like times in my life where those around me think they have me all figured out. I know I that do this to people too and I'm trying to do it less, but it is something I really still do not like.
We've been talking in one of my classes lately about how man is made in the image of God. One thing I have been thinking about is how we as humans cannot fully know God or the hows and whys of what he does. And if we are truly made in the image of God, aren't there going to be things about us that cannot fully be understood by another human.
Of course God sees all of us and understands us but, what about others? Other humans cannot know the 'hows' or 'whys', other humans cannot know the intentions of my heart, unless I tell them. I include myself as a recipient in this next piece of advice.

Stop acting like you know everything.

Because you don't.

I have my moments(as stated above) that I think I got someone all figured out and that I understand their motives and goals, but I am finding more and more that this form of judging(cause that's what it is) is totally destroying my opportunities for sharing the love of Christ for others. When I'm doing this I am unintentionally trying to hinder God's work in my own and other people's lives. Which is sin.

I love God and I'm trying to live like I say I believe. Praise God for new relizations.

an angry thought

you know how there are times in your life you're mad about something and you do something stupid when you're still upset? Well I didn't do anything really that I regret but still feel upset and stupid. i was pissed about an assignment that I do not understand how to do and it is worth a quarter of my grade and i can't even get a start on it. due tommorow.
so I cut my beard down. and now I'm itchy. i feel dumb.

this is something I wrote a while back

Like the title says I wrote a while back and I feel OK about sharing it now.


"Challenged by the love of unresting, unwavering God. I am afraid of the fact that He sees me as something, as someone, who is worthy of His love. Mind you it is not because of something I have done, for I have been painted red. Reddened by the blood of dreams I have slaughtered, mercilessly. Out of my selfishness I have oddly seen how I've hurt you. You, blameless in all ways. Corrupted, by all my ways. Not shunned by your father for loving the unclean."

tuesdays with adam

I think from now on Tuesdays will probably be my busiest day of the week. Besides going to class today I had three other things go on today that are probably going to be consistent. It was a real pleasure to be around people that were thinking today. and not just like "what am I going to do tonight?" type thinking but, "what does God what me to do with my life?" type thinking. Physically i hurt pretty bad but spiritually I feel pretty good, which a wonder in its own right.

I'm Brilliant but, Misunderstood

I don't exactly know what I'm looking for in myself but, the problem is that I'm looking to myself. I sometimes feel that I look too quickly at my life and base it off of my own experiences and not what God may have for me in comparison.
This isn't just me but a lot of people do this: Sometimes I feel guilty when what I believe God wants me to do is something that I want too. I think this is pretty stupid but, I still operate in this view that God doesn't want us to have fun. Unfortunately the part of Scripture that says "Have Fun" was cut out at the Council of Nicea(2ND Hesitations) jk.
I think that a lot of us go about thinking that way. we get this crazy idea that because the Bible doesn't speak about having fun that it's not allowed but, the Bible says that God is the "Joy Bringer" and although fun and happiness and joy are not exactly synonymous I think that they have to relate. oh well just a thought.

A little bit sad.

I don't know exactly what it is but, I'm more sad than I was the other day. I had a legitimate reason to be sad about something in the first place but, now I don't know what the new reason is but, it is something stronger than before. But I now have to except that God is still God , no matter how I feel about Him.

Absent Minded

i don't really like the way I feel right now. It is weird how the unintentional things people do hurt more sometimes then when people try to cause me pain. I had both happen today and really preferred the intentional hurt over the unintentional. I am probably not making sense right now but that is okay. I think.
I need to accept more and more that there are going to be people that fall into both categories all through out my life. I don't want to hold to grudges i need to hold to God's promises. And His truth.