I'm sick of trying to impress people. I know we all have this innate desire to be better than those around us but just cause it is part doesn't mean I have to like it right?
I don't want to be the guy who only finds value in what he can do i want to be somebody that has found value because God has decided to reside in me. I want to be the guy that becomes holy not because of any goodness of my own but rather God's goodness.
I made an observation tonight. As human beings are social creatures we want attention. The people I was hanging out with tonight seemed very much wanting lots of attention. I don't mean that to be judgemental or whatever but if you get pissed I really won't bend. Wanting attention isn't a bad thing in and of itself is not a bad thing but people (including myself) go about getting attention in bad ways. Like doing dangerous things, I will admit that I like doing dangerous and stupid things but my love of that is not dependent on being around people or not. Granted having spectators does make most people willing to do more but it is more or less just entertaining people with tricks like an animal.
Speaking of animals, I wish I could catch a bear and train him to ride a unicycle while playing "The Star Spangled Banner", But thats another story for another day.
I'll keep it simple, I don't know what I think about weird phenomeon but something weird has happened to me and I realized and week or so ago and I was just reminded of it again today. I have recieved atleast 1 new cut on my hands a week for about the last year and a half. it is kind of weird but i don't know if it means anything. oh well.
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