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I haven't posted in a really long time, but I dont really think it matters as no one is reading this but this has been more of a personal way of coping with reality. I haven't really been talking to my friends lately. Pretty much my only friend that I'm keeping in regular contact with is my brother Karl but, it is not really an effort cause we leave in the same house. about half of my close friends are getting married; all with in my group of close friends, Ben to Leah and Katie to Micah. I'm honestly quite frustrated about it...not that they are getting married but rather that the whole thing makes me feel quite jealous. And I don't really feel jealous in the traditional way, I feel I've been treating them differently since they each became engaged. I'm distant from them and not bothering to communicte, i don't think that is right, but i've noticed they are not the only people i'm ignoring. i don't know when i'll change. Probably today cause i'm addressing this as a problem.